Living ageless and Faults
Own it! Why? Is it so hard for people to admit to their faults or shortcomings? “…He looks beyond my faults and see my needs…” (1 Timothy 1 12-17). Yet, many are unwilling to even admit to their faults. Therefore, it eliminates apologies! and admitting wrongdoings in a matter! asking for forgiveness! … Is that the logic and reason behind not admitting to faults? So, unfair to the fall guy never being able to bring closure to a hurtful chapter in his or her life, but by burying the hatchet in one’s own time, and way. In December 2001; I was in a space where nothing even mattered, I just decided to take back everything, and me and my youngest son escaped to and spent the Christmas holidays in Florida on a vacation like no other. Every year we would take the boys there when they were younger, and it was so much fun. Especially, Shamu the whale in sea world. Now, my youngest was twenty-one years old, and besides I was invited to a wedding during that time, for an idiot that; I could not care less about. The vacation was the best ever; I was spending money like it was falling out of a tree. Finally, on day three we decided to go to feed the Dolphins, but before we purchased the fish to feed them, we just decided to get a spot nearby, and it was like magic all of the dolphins gravitate to us like they were talking and singing to me and my son everybody was laughing and enjoying the view, and just stood by with fish in had we had nothing. Yet, all of the dolphins were within arm’s length of us. Who Knew? Four months later; I would bury my son Maybe this is what the Dolphins were trying to prepare me for. Maybe they were telling me that it was not my fault because; I had those tendencies to take things into my head, and blaming myself for things that were out of my control. All in all, the Dolphins on that day taught me a lesson of self-acceptance. The Dolphins did not discriminate, judge, or prosecute. Instead they chose me “I am enough, I did enough, and I would have to let go”. I guess it was the beginning of cutting my losses in that season a time to cry. When it is time to get our act together it is very lonely trim off the fat, and choose growth.
A season, a reason, or a lifetime